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[aired] wrestling dreams

Moving use of a few of my ambient tracks by filmmaker Kenny Johnson in Wrestle Donst Wrestle (imdb), a 2015 documentary about independent professional (Absolute Intense Wrestling (AIW)) wrestler Tim Donst‘s battle to return to the ring.

Upon A Child’s Doll Reflection,” “Truth Is A Lonely Place,” and “Space Walk” (all Disquiet Junto projects, btw) well up at critical times in the film. No spoilers, of course, but the poignancy and melody they lend their respective scenes affirmed all the reasons I started writing ambient wordless work in earnest a few years ago.

Professional wrestling cuts a deep, diverse and cross-generational swath through America (the WWE represents only a glossy major-label equivalency), threading across many eras with stories of soaring courage, unabashed victory, gritted determination and dream-shattering heartbreak. The 2008 film The Wrestler with Mickey Rourke touched on these themes and conveyed a raw just-below-the-surface look at someone akin to Donst. Aside from that film, I knew almost nothing of Donst’s indie wrestling world as I hit the play button here. Now I can’t imagine our world without his.

Life outside the mainstream too often is marginalized to appear frivolous or inconsequential – struggles too “real” for popular consumption, perhaps. I feel a kindred spirit with Donst. In the way he wakes conscious with wrestling moves in his head, I wake thinking only of writing music. DNA isn’t just physical – it’s also spiritual. The moment you tap into what makes you you, life starts.

YouTube liner notes

Published on Aug 16, 2015
In February 2015, Tim Donst told the independent wrestling world that his in ring career was possibly over. He had a tumor in his right kidney. His future was uncertain.

In this documentary, Donst reflects back on his career, his passion for wrestling, thoughts on death, talking with Mick Foley, and the road to recovery.

But was his career really over? Would he ever set foot in a wrestling ever again as an active competitor? Find out as he goes back to AIW (Absolute Intense Wrestling) and is confronted by the King of Ultra Violence Nick Gage.

***Twitter Plugs***
The Director Kenny Johnson – https://twitter.com/kenjohnson1028
Tim Donst – https://twitter.com/tdonst
Absolute Intense Wrestling – https://twitter.com/aiwrestling
Nick Gage – https://twitter.com/thekingnickgage
Eric Ryan – https://twitter.com/Ericryanpro/media
Greg Excellent – https://twitter.com/GregExcellent

Special thank to CZW, Chikara, and Mick Foley.

SOURCE TRACKS

Upon A Child’s Doll Reflection

Truth Is A Lonely Place

Space Walk


[aired] truth is a lonely timelapse

Gorgeous timelapses of the Meinerswijk (Arnhem), Netherlands, countryside set to my Truth Is A Lonely PLace [disquiet0138] off Particle Theory (2014) [bandcamp | freemusicarchive]. Shot and edited by Netherlands photographer and filmmaker Floris van Loon (http://florisvanloon.nl).

Published on May 25, 2016
http://florisvanloon.nl
With this video no monetization is intended.

Music “Truth Is A Lonely Place [disquiet0138]” by Westy Reflector

The music in this video is released under
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(CC BY-NC-SA 3.0 US)
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Particle Theory: Spotify

2016 project: Put my solo work from the last few years onto Spotify, iTunes, Amazon, etc. The permanency of these commercial uploads requires (re)mastering and attention to details often overlooked in the flurry of my usual ad-hoc self-releasing. Particle Theory (2014) is first up. Every spin puts a shred of lettuce on a sandwich and thus always appreciated.

:^D

http://open.spotify.com/album/2QVZh6KaHFMetVQa6WmPDp


Below The Decks: The Shimmer Of Sealegs

Broadcasting since 1922 from Kingston, Onterrible, CFRC 101.9 FM is Canada’s longest-running campus-based broadcaster and a “100% not-for-profit, volunteer-powered media that fills the gap left by the mainstream.” The acronym, however, does not stand for Canadian Free Radio Company, but, rather, “Canada’s Famous Rugby Champions,” since sports broadcasts comprised most of the station’s original programming, save for a few lectures, concerts and convocations.

Here in 2015, my ambient tracks Truth Is A Lonely Place and The Shimmer Of Stars In Green Water [both off Particle Theory (2014)] were played on two successive Tuesday broadcasts of the Below The Decks show, hosted by a mellifuous DJ and sound artist, K.L. Sealegs (twitter, tumblr, free music archive), whose musical erudition and classic Canadian wit match her eloquence.

Friend and collaborator Lee Rosevere appeared on the 10 February show, where Sealegs interviewed him on his life and work while showcasing a few of his tracks, one of which was our collab Truth Is A Lonely Place. In the ensuing week, she listened to the rest of Particle Theory and played The Shimmer Of Stars In Green Water on the 17 February broadcast. Sealegs also read the liner notes to Particle Theory as the track faded out, her transcendental voice resulting in a definitive interpretation of the passage’s spirit. In both shows’ playlists, I ended up in the midst of esteemed company. Such a kick.

Links:

10 February 2015 (Truth Is A Lonely Place opens Hour 2…)
Download / Stream: hour 1 (mp3)
Download / Stream: hour 2 (mp3)
Artists On The Playlist: ninos du brazil, theo parrish, bonobo, anenon, rival consoles, gunnar has lam, litterbug, lee rosevere, kl sealegs, westy reflector, ian william craig, donnacha costello

17 February 2015 (The Shimmer Of Stars is 2nd to last track, Hour 2…)
Download / Stream: hour 1 (mp3)
Download / Stream: hour 2 (mp3)
Artists On The Playlist: badbadnotgood, theo parrish, moodymann, caribou, planningtorock, cosmic cowboys, the mole, d’angelo, conforce, nicolas jaar, vc vibes, bruce haack, peaking lights, master musicians of bukkake, x.y.r., sebastian mullaert & eitan reiter, westy reflector, kyle bobby dunn

Hear KL Sealegs’ original solo music at the Free Music Archive and from her group Fire Moss at their bandcamp page.




Truth Is A Lonely Place In Ephemeral

Lee Rosevere and I wrote and remixed | two | versions | of “Truth Is A Lonely Place” in August 2014 for a Disquiet Junto challenge to compose a soundtrack to an endlessly-looped silent film by Josh Azzarella. Lee’s remix track eventually found its way into Disquiet.com Mark Weidenbaum’s Fall 2015 installation of the video at the San Jose Museum Of Art.

I released both tracks in November on my record, Particle Theory, as stand-alone audio pieces bookending my track Roadside Justice. I wrote Roadside Justice the same week as the challenge last August and the title “truth is a lonely place” was taken from its lyrics.

Randomly, both our tracks were picked up from the freemusicarchive by Malta video game designers Alan Duca, Mark Magro, Jean-Pierre Brincat, Moira Zahra and Mark Scicluna, and looped continuously through their experimental game called Ephemeral, developed for the 2015 Global Game Jam in January. They won a couple awards (including “Most Unusual Game”) and high praise from Calum Fraser at AlphaBetaGamer. Animated by Zahra and written by Brincat, the game is described as thus:

Two beings plummet simultaneously towards their death. Letters and faint lights tumble along in the background. How will they deal with this predicament?

Eerie and wonderful all at once, given the source material that Lee & I composed to. Azzarella’s silent video is a “never-ending-loop” of a man falling from the World Trade Center on 11 September 2001:

Untitled #8, 2004 from Josh Azzarella

It’s a loop come full circle…

Read more about the original track and disquiet junto challenge.

Read more about Marc Weidenbaum’s installation of Azzarella’s video at the museum’s Momentum Exhibit, which runs through 22 February 2015.


Raging Cooks

All The Rage [off Particle Theory (2014)] opens the latest #TorradaTorrada episode. Luanda Gazoni, Martin Casilli and Mohamad Hindi don aprons at the track’s “audition dress” line. Fitting in so many ways…

Published on Dec 23, 2014
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Particle Theory

16 November 2014

Drifting Moon/Spinning…
Sum + Difference
All The Rage
Melody Chaos
Welcome To The Interzone
Turnaround, Annie
Intransitive Disappearance
Truth Is A Lonely Place
Roadside Justice
Truth Is A Lonely Place
Particle Theory
The Shimmer Of Stars…

bandcamp | freemusicarchive


Turnaround, Annie

she didn’t feel suspicious – or paranoid
she didn’t see the distance – into the void
she learned to play with all the memories – like toys
she said it made it easier to drown the noise

she worked for years – to create confusion
as she waited for life to reveal itself as an illusion
along the way she learned not to search for conclusions

as we drove the roads around my house
she wasn’t gonna stop until she broke down
all those angry hours

she said, “don’t tell me when to turn around…
“i’ll tell you when we turn around
“just keep driving towards the moon
“don’t you dare turn around

6am underneath the subway tracks
she said if that train was a plane I’d jump right on its back
then she rolled her eyes and taught me how to fade to black

as we drove the roads around my house
she wasn’t gonna stop until she broke down
all those angry hours

she said, “don’t tell me when to turn around…
“i’ll tell you when we turn around
“just keep driving towards the moon
“don’t you dare turn around


Drifting Moon / Spinning Earth (drum remix)

So this is awesome. Producer and musician Lee Rosevere asked if he could “bash and crash” over Drifting Moon / Spinning Earth, so I stripped the original drum and percussion tracks and sent him a pre-master studio file. From 3000 miles away, he came back with the glorious result above.

From his SoundCloud description:

Westy Reflector recently posted this song of his:

I really liked it, but wondered what it would sound like with [different] drums. Graciously he sent me the bed tracks and this is the result.

Lee Rosevere
Happy Puppy Records
Twitter
YouTube
Free Music Archive


Melody Chaos

Inspired by New Orleans, where making melody out of chaos is the art.

So there you have it, we wrote our ticket out
We’re headed anywhere we want to choose.

We never really planned it, just never had doubts
We were going somewhere – never gonna lose

Yeah, the stakes are high
But our vision’s clear
Maybe neither of us is pure, but our moment’s here

It’s ok to embrace uncertainty
A quiet life we may never see
So for now this noise makes a symphony

In the middle of chaos, you’re my melody

so here I’m landing, took the red eye out
I see the causeway that leads to you

St Mary guides us down from the clouds
Harmony carries us through

So there you have it, we wrote our ticket out
We’re headed anywhere we want to choose.

It’s ok to embrace uncertainty
A quiet life we may never see
So let all the noise make a symphony

In the middle of chaos, you’re my melody


Drifting Moon / Spinning Earth

Drifting Moon / Spinning Earth
09.28.2014 1:22a, 09.30.2014 10:34p, 10.01.2014 6:30p, 10.03.2014 8:35p

She had to leave Ohio
Find a strength she’d never known
She had to shed her skin
What she was was too far away from what she was within

You pay the price / To be yourself
When you’re not the one / The world expected

But we are each a universe
Where every drifting moon / Deserves a spinning Earth
Everything you are, we are, too.

She followed her dreams to New York
A thousand feet in the air she found love
He said “You should never feel alone. You had the light in you all along.
“Do not live life as a shadow… I know…

“You pay the price / To be yourself
When you’re not the one / The world expected

“But you and I make a universe
Where every drifting moon / Finds a spinning Earth
Everything you are, I am, too.”

In the clouds and in his arms
She let go of right and wrong
Tore away her shirt; threw away her tie
Turned her shadow into a sword

You pay the price / To be yourself
When you’re not the one / The world expected

But you and I make a universe
Where every drifting moon / Finds a spinning earth
Everything you are
Is a universe
Where every drifting moon / Finds a spinning Earth
Everything you are, we are, too.


Roadside Justice

24 August 2014, 2:34am

In front of the firing line
You’ll look up at the blue sky
And we’ll trace the route to each other’s eyes

In the wake that’s left behind
As the sounds of the gun shots die
You’ll leave this world with your head held high

Don’t look for justice at the side of the road
Don’t trust the crowd
We are on our own

You will live in the memory of birds
The wind will carry your words
Your dreams will serve as my alibi

Truth is a lonely place
Lonely as a human race

Don’t look for justice at the side of the road
Don’t trust the crowd
We are on our own

In the wake that’s left behind
As the sounds of the war drums die
We leave this world with our heads held high


truth is a lonely place [disquiet0138-videosonicvoid]

PROJECT
Compose a 2.5-minute soundtrack to complement the silent video “Untitled #8, 2004″ by the artist Josh Azzarella. The video is intended by the artist as a “Never Ending Loop,” as is this audio accompaniment.

Untitled #8, 2004 from Josh Azzarella on Vimeo.

If not visible above, view the video here:
vimeo.com/21678371
www.joshazzarella.com/videoworks200408/

PROCESS
Lee Rosevere (@happypuppyrecords and @happypuppy2) emailed me shortly after this project went live, suggesting we collaborate and that I might start him off with a few guitar melodies. This is the original track I cut for him. I also sent him stems, and he ended up slicing, looping and manipulating my guitar to construct a brilliant rework, which I consider to be the definitive version of the track.

It’s always fun to see into the DNA of a remix, and the Junto is nothing if not about shared spaces, so I uploaded my track to the group, in addition to Lee’s putting his up, for the weekend-geneticist thrill of it.

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More on this 138th Disquiet Junto project — “Compose a 2.5-minute soundtrack to complement a work of silent video art″

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The image associated with this track is a still from the video that inspired it: “Untitled #8, 2004″ by Josh Azzarella.


the shimmer of stars in green water

An homage in drone to Antoine de Saint-Exupery’s “Wind, Sand and Stars.”

“The first stars tremble as if shimmering in green water. Hours must pass before their glimmer hardens into the frozen glitter of diamonds…”


welcome to the interzone [disquiet0110-wsb100]

source article

This New York Post headline (“I Could Have Saved Him”) screamed at me from a newsstand on 5th Avenue and 9th Street in Brooklyn a couple days after receiving this week’s challenge, and I couldn’t shake it. As the weekend closed, I looked at the front pages of all the other papers in town with this challenge in mind, including a couple hyperlocal rags (NY Times, NY Observer, NY Daily News, Brooklyn Eagle, Park Slope Courier, etc…), but no other story stuck with me like this one, falling lock-step into the context of this Junto challenge celebrating the 100th birthday of William S. Burroughs.

Philip Seymour Hoffman’s heroin dealer has convinced himself that he could have prevented Hoffman’s death had he been shooting up with him. The brief interview has overtones of a Burroughs scene and, for sure, this guy – a jazz musician with a penchant for junk – is a character straight out of the Naked Lunch Interzone.

I cut words from a lot of the sentences to fit the flow of the song, but this didn’t seem to violate the spirit of the assignment. Burroughs used so many ellipses in his writing that it’s hard to tell if he ever published a single sentence in its logical order. His style gave me some air cover.

Put a simple, dumb rock song together tonight to prop up the words. Psyched to get it in just under the wire. One live guitar track, one live synth and a vocal (one-take with one punch-in) over drum/bass loops arranged in Acid. I’ve been cycling through E-G-A and E-D-A progressions recently, and this track runs around those while capo’ed on the second fret for the D-form E-chord.

The “problem” with tabloids like the Post, though, is that we would never have gotten a cover story on a living Philip Seymour Hoffman with the headline “We Should Save Him Today.” We only get the rubberneck aftermath lead-if-it-bleeds crimson journalism. The Interzone, indeed. Hi ho.

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LYRICS

3. “I could’ve saved him.” (x4)

14. You wouldn’t know he was an Oscar winner.
10. When asked if he had ever sold Hoffman drugs
5. He said “If I was with him, it wouldn’t have happened.”
7. He said he had known the 46-year-old “Capote” star for about a year.

3. “I could’ve saved him.” (x4)

8. Hoffman injected
18. He claims he last saw Hoffman — high — in October.
11. “When we got together, we talked about books.
4. “If I knew he was in town, I would’ve said, ‘Hey, let’s make an AA meeting.’

3. “I could’ve saved him.” (x4)

6. “Not under my guard.”
17. The star’s final, four-month struggle against drugs.
12. And art.
9. 73 bags of heroin found in a Greenwich Village apartment.

15. He loved his kids. (x4)

3. “I could’ve saved him.” (x4)

13. “He was a normal guy.
2. “He was my friend.
16. “I offer my condolences to his family.
1. “I didn’t kill him — and I could’ve saved him.”

3. “I could’ve saved him,” jazz musician and admitted junkie Robert Vineberg said, wearing a gray prison jumpsuit and hunching pensively at a red table in a Rikers Island jail visiting area.

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RIG

guitar:
Jolie (Gibson ES335 dot reissue, custom peekamoose.com electronics), Earthquaker The Warden compressor, Ibanez Screamer TS808, tc electronic Flashback delay (tape setting), Strymon BlueSky reverberator, VOX AC15 (mic’ed via a Sennheiser MD412-ii)

synth:
Sunrizer for iPad (HT @shredderghost)

vocals:
AKG C3000B condenser mic, Lexicon rack delay

drum/bass:
samples (one shots & loops)

interface:
MOTU 828mk2 interface, Acid Pro 7.0, Windows XP

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PROJECT

Step 1:
Take the lead article from your local newspaper and write down the first 18 sentences on separate slips of paper — or, if you prefer, extract the first 18 lines on separate strips of paper.

Step 2:
Label these pieces of text from 1 to 18.

Step 3:
Either read them out loud or use text-to-speech and record them.

Step 4:
Construct the vocal of a song using the material. Sequence the vocal in the following order. Note that text element 3 serves as the chorus and text element 15 serves as the bridge. The remaining elements are in random sets of four, with no repetition.

3 3 3 3
14 10 5 7
3 3 3 3
8 18 11 4
3 3 3 3
6 17 12 9
15 15 15 15
3 3 3 3
13 2 16 1
3 3 3 3

Add music, whatever instrumentation you choose, to flesh this out into a proper song.

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intransitive disapperance [disquiet0108-freebassel]

PROCESS
Connected to this assignment, and wanted to do some small part to keep Bassel’s cause and case out front. I’m not a foley artist and field recording is not my game, though, so consider this less a soundscape than a track that might run over closing credits.

Married some royalty-free congas, tambourines and trap kit loops on an Acid timeline.
Selected two samples of Bassel speaking from the video: “I’m sorry I can’t see you.” and “That can be controlled.”
Locked in a drone with an EHX Superego and Freeze running through a Strymon Blue Sky.
Improvised a bed with an ebow.
Then riffed around the most “eastern” scale I know. The result may be more Spanish Gypsy than Syrian, but still felt Mediterranean. Just wanted to evoke a mood.

“The absurd is the essential concept and the first truth.”
– Albert Camus

We can all be disappeared now. More and more it’s an intransitive verb.

Peace,
:^D

PROJECT
Disquiet Junto Project 0108: Free Bassel

For this week’s project, we’re going to create soundscapes for an ancient Middle Eastern city. And in the process, we’re going to raise awareness about an imprisoned open-source developer with strong ties to the Creative Commons community. Bassel Khartabil, before his arrest on March 15, 2012, in Damascus, was working on several projects, among them a 3D rendering of the ancient city of Palmyra. Much as Bassel was trying to revive an ancient world, you are, in essence, keeping one of his projects alive while he is incapable of doing so.

The project instructions are as follows:

Step 1: View this video for background on Bassel’s digital Palmyra project:

www.youtube.com/watch?v=7G7fyWS-ysA

Step 2: If you aren’t viewing this instruction on the Disquiet.com project page, go to the following URL to view three still images from Bassel’s 3D work:

disquiet.com/2014/01/23/disquiet0108-freebassel/

Step 3: Create a soundscape of between one and three minutes that might be employed in an immersive, completed digital visualization of ancient Palmyra.

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More on this 108th Disquiet Junto project (“Create a soundscape for the ancient Syrian city of Palmyra.”)

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For their collaboration on this project, special thanks to: Niki Korth, Barry Threw, and Jon Phillips.


All The Rage

She spent 27 years in an inland town
And she dared herself to rage every time she stopped looking down
And then the ad in the paper said
“Dreams come true, just get downtown and see you know who –
If you know how to rage, then we want you!”

She bought an audition dress at Main Floor in the Redlands Mall
And she nearly died when the salesgirl said
“You know that dress, it kinda makes you look… tall”
And then she got up this morning and waited in the queue
Then they said “Sit here until we call for you.
There’s dreamers in front who queued up, too…”

To be all the rage and out tonight.
All that rage in black and white
In the public eye and out of sight
To be all the rage…

Someone said “Never mind her, just get yourself downtown.”
When her sister said “Hey, give it up baby, it’ll never work out.”
So now she’s in a folding chair against a fake fake wall
As the sun goes down outside a windowless hall
and she can’t lose her shit ’cause her name’s been called…

Well, she blew them away in that downtown room
And now we see her everywhere like a Sun God…

And her hometown paper gave her the whole home page
And now she gets a table where she used to dance a cage
And she’s never alone, now that she’s

All the rage and out tonight.
All that rage in black and white
In the public eye and out of sight
She’s all the rage.


Particle Theory

Life imprints sentience on the particles we cede back to the universe upon passing. Death is decentralization, not expiration, of consciousness. Each of our muons and protons and electrons comprises the cumulative wisdom of all that has experienced life before. We are each one, and we are each all.

My friend John Arthur passed on 22 October 2013. I met him through my wife, who knew him for her entire life. After attending a memorial gathering for John in Cincinnati in October 2013, this track just kinda spilled out.

In the course of fighting ALS, John and his partner Jim also fought for their right to be buried together as spouses. The former battle ended, but not before the latter battle was won. All the wars, however, rage on.

you & i let’s float away
lighter than air
lighter than light

you can’t break down what you can’t divide
you can’t destroy what you can’t collide
let’s float away

you & i let’s drift away
we are the clouds
that make a perfect sky

you can’t break down what you can’t divide
you can’t destroy what you can’t collide
let’s float away