[img] “…the world we know is constructed in order to see itself.” – G. Spencer Brown

“…the world we know is constructed in order to see itself.” – G. Spencer Brown
September 22, 2016 at 09:12AM
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[aired] wrestling dreams

Moving and relevant use of a few of my ambient tracks by filmmaker Kenny Johnson in Wrestle Donst Wrestle, a 2015 documentary about independent professional (Absolute Intense Wrestling (AIW)) wrestler Tim Donst‘s battle to return to the ring after a kidney tumor. “Upon A Child’s Doll Reflection,” “Truth Is A Lonely Place,” and “Space Walk” (all Disquiet Junto projects, btw) well up at critical times in the film. No spoilers, of course, but the poignancy and melody they lend their respective scenes affirmed all the reasons I started writing ambient wordless work in earnest a few years ago.

Wrestling is a deep subculture, with many threads through time and stories of soaring courage, gritted determination and dream-shattering heartbreak. The 2008 film The Wrestler with Mickey Rourke touched on these themes and conveyed a raw, albeit too-neatly story-arc’ed, look at someone akin to Donst. I knew almost nothing of Donst’s real world as I hit the play button here. Now I can’t imagine our world without his.

Lives in the shadows are often in the balance, and make for fascinating exploration. Life on the fringes, however and unfortunately, too often is marginalized and made frivolous. I feel a kindred spirit with Donst. Neither of us push ourselves to realize our passions for the money or the fame. He can’t envision waking consciousness without the promise of a next match the way I cannot wake without thinking of writing music. DNA isn’t just physical – it’s also spiritual. The moment you tap into what makes you you, life starts.

YouTube liner notes

Published on Aug 16, 2015
In February 2015, Tim Donst told the independent wrestling world that his in ring career was possibly over. He had a tumor in his right kidney. His future was uncertain.

In this documentary, Donst reflects back on his career, his passion for wrestling, thoughts on death, talking with Mick Foley, and the road to recovery.

But was his career really over? Would he ever set foot in a wrestling ever again as an active competitor? Find out as he goes back to AIW (Absolute Intense Wrestling) and is confronted by the King of Ultra Violence Nick Gage.

***Twitter Plugs***
The Director Kenny Johnson – https://twitter.com/kenjohnson1028
Tim Donst – https://twitter.com/tdonst
Absolute Intense Wrestling – https://twitter.com/aiwrestling
Nick Gage – https://twitter.com/thekingnickgage
Eric Ryan – https://twitter.com/Ericryanpro/media
Greg Excellent – https://twitter.com/GregExcellent

Special thank to CZW, Chikara, and Mick Foley.

SOURCE TRACKS

Upon A Child’s Doll Reflection

Truth Is A Lonely Place

Space Walk


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September 20, 2016 at 11:43AM
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[aired] chasing an acting dream

Sandro Intervju from Oliver der Nederlanden on Vimeo.

Chasing Flight soundtracks an introspective interview with Swedish actor Sandro Khafor, shot by Oliver der Nederlanden and Magnus Lindkvist. Wish I knew Swedish, but the word for actor, skådespelare, is a sharp looking one.

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[img] “There are days / she said / the sunlight through the trees / feels like my own creation.” (Fire Town)

“There are days / she said / the sunlight through the trees / feels like my own creation.” (Fire Town)
September 16, 2016 at 08:57AM
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[img] Hoje, vamos ouvir o silêncio do amor… com Luiz Bonfa, Oscar Castro Neves, e Lalo Schifrin

Hoje, vamos ouvir o silêncio do amor… com Luiz Bonfa, Oscar Castro Neves, e Lalo Schifrin
September 13, 2016 at 12:57PM
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[img] Holland Tunnel approach / 20160911.0949

Holland Tunnel approach / 20160911.0949
September 11, 2016 at 12:26PM
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[track] the other side of the end

a sunny trip thru simulation theory, alan watts, and the watercourse way.
:^D

all the dreams have been blamed
all the sources have been named
there’s no hiding in the shadows anymore
all the ‘steins have been ‘stained
all the acid has been rained
there’s no overriding the code

[ch]
we’re on the other side of the end
with no trace no chance to defend
the true meaning of our being, friends
on the other side of the end

the simulation reset
everyone’s free to forget
all the ways we used to agree
and the lines of least resistance
destroyed by destroying
all the ways water courses to the sea

easy to miss when everything’s not right
the signs can hide in plain sight

[ch]


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September 08, 2016 at 11:05AM
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[dispatch] cat thomas: of robots and angela

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September 06, 2016 at 04:08PM
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[dispatch] Road To The Well Festival Win

September 05, 2016 at 08:48AM
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Last night (09.04.2016) the wonderful and dark indie film Road To The Well (dir. Jon Cvack), which used my Americana track Man Again, won Best In Festival at the 2016 Long Beach Film Festival.

source track:
Man Again (FMA bonus track on Transient Lines)


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September 02, 2016 at 08:50PM
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August 31, 2016 at 05:59PM
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take back life / hide it from view / it will only be / us and the wind
August 30, 2016 at 11:05AM
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August 29, 2016 at 06:34PM
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[dispatch] summer simulation dream 1a

August 28, 2016 at 06:42PM
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August 26, 2016 at 09:37PM
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recursive graffiti
August 25, 2016 at 02:33PM
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skyline chill
August 23, 2016 at 05:38PM
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